just a quick blog before i head back to toronto for the wknd! (mm leaving in like 5 mins! ahhh better make this quick) anyways, just finished by eco exam. its sposed to go til 4, but i left early. not too bad. not great, definitely not perfect, but not a fail. im expecting at least 70s? yah most likely. meh! haha i shoulda studied more, but thats what i always say. i dont think i'll ever learn :P anyways, this tough tough week kinda passed by not so toughly, i managed to finish off what i needed to, just barely surviving. so we'll see how next week goes. whats ahead for this wknd? hmmm dinners, homework, mitchells sale (boycott) and uhmmm probably some good ol tele.

so beyond that, i was told that sometimes when i blog i just post song lyrics, and they dont really make much sense or mean much. so from now on i'll try to explain a bit about why i posted i guess. the one i posted this morning is a nichole nordeman song called anyways. its gorgeous. just talking about how even though we try and we try to be 'good' christians, always failing, always trying again and again, and sometimes we wonder if its even worth it. but the thing is, God sees us as beautiful even while we're trying. he manages to see the finished product that we could be, even when we are far from it. i guess its just encouragement. ive been listening to lotsa nichole nordeman recently cuz james told me to burn him a cd of her stuff. so yah.. shes a very talented songwriter, definitely one of the better ones, though i like other people doing covers of her songs. she may not be the best musically, but lyrically, shes way up there. :) i'll probably be putting more of her songs up in the near future. just some ones to d/l if you're looking around kazaa: why, help me believe, i am. i am is amazing. i was lying in bed listening to it for so long. (haha instead of studying) but yah, it's very nice. anyways, with that note im off! have a wonderful weekend y'all. sun leen fie lok..? lok? lock? louk? i dunno. and sun ti geen hong! haha be blessed.

Bless the day this restoration is complete
Dirty, dusty, something must be underneath
So I scrape and I scuff
Though it’s never quite enough
I am starting to see me, finally

A gallery of paintings
new and paintings old
Guess it’s no surprise that
I’m no Michaelangelo
Every layer of mine
Hides a lovely design
It might take a little patience
It might take a little time

But You called me beautiful
When You saw my shame
And You placed me on the wall
Anyway

You, who have begun this work,
will someday see
A portrait of the holiness
You meant for me
So I polish and shine
Till it’s easier to find
Even an outline of mine

havent blogged in a while! oh my. hmm lessee..

last friday: skipped philosophy, went home for the wknd.
last saturday: parents left for chicago, had to wake up at a dreadful hour to send them off to the airport, then i took a nap, then went to the liberry with james and got some studying done. at night.. leafs game.
last sunday: went to church, *interesting* sermon, sunday school with norm, swiss chalet for lunch with james, velsie, sam, ed, b-man. good times. then watched 'the kangs' again, then superbowl with vels, smo, bman, james, gway, and wayne. not too shabs. go bucs go. then jer comes to pick me up to go back to loo
monday: (about 12am) arrive in loo, go sleep. classes all day. mel's for dinner with sharon and alli.
tuesday(today): eco, good class, good prof, then ate lunch, played pool, skipped psych (for the.. 5th time in a row), hung around, went to a biz group mtg, hung out with sharon, watched bowling for columbine again. great documentary. highly recommended.

there! now we're all up to date. anyways im feeling kinda mellow. important things going on with me right now?
1. housing!!! very complicated, right now im still looking for a place cuz things havent worked out yet. but im more than sure God's got this all in his highly capable hands.
2. crazy amounts of schoolwork. tomorrow: meetings, homework, thursday, meetings, work, friday, business presentation thingy, sociology paper due, eco midterm. please keep me in your prayers
3. spiritual life. trying very hard to put God first, to seek him out more, to fall in love with my savior again and again every day. reading: bible, john piper. good stuff.

i hope you're all doing very well. to those i havent spoken to in a while, im sorry, been busy, but please don't hesitate to gimme a shout whenever. stay firm to the path. God bless.

fun day today! went to cfc, good sermon. the worship team did 'worship you forever' and the guy actually sang out all the todd fields lines. including the ones in the key change. so funny. good stuff! then we went to dawns and had lunch and watched bridget jones' diary. kinda :) haha then football where the bucs won! woot woot! and then back here to my humble res. doing some studying. eating jalapeno chips which are way too spicy. anyways right now im totally feeling this song 'spoken for' by the band mercy me. go d/l it if u havent heard it before. or at least read it:

Take this world from me
Don't need it anymore
For I am finally free
My heart is spoken for

Oh and I praise You
Oh and I worship You

Covered by a love divine
Child of the risen Lord
To hear You say "This one's mine"
My heart is spoken for

Now I have a peace
That I've never known before
I find myself complete
My heart is spoken for

By the power of the cross
You've taken what was lost
And made it fully Yours
And I have been redeemed
By You who spoke to me
Now I am spoken for

things have been going okay lately. been watching lotssa smallville (season 1) and getting caught up to date. we watched "114 - zero" today. extraordinary! :) and hmm what else? been playing pool almost every day now. very fun. good stuff. i think/hope im getting better. sharon and i beat these two white boys the other day. woot woot! hmm and yeah, went home on sat this past wknd. james and ppl came up for a cc meeting, so we decided to go back home with them anyways.. on sunday, went to the raps game, and they WON!!! oh boy oh boy. and yeah, they won again tonite over mj and the wizards.. but thats cuz stack was out. ANYWAYS! school is decent. i finally got my printer to work after reinstalling the drivers. but im short on black ink! HELP! today in economics the class was so frickin full. we're not sposed to be there but we go there cuz the prof is great. and the others suck! :) haah so yah a lot of ppl do that i think, so if you're late (like 20 ppl were today) there are no more seats hahaah :) so next class the prof said hes gonna kick out those who arent sposed to be in there. but i dont care! im not leaving! hows he gonna do that anways?!?! hows he gonna know who to kick out? hmm :) its a good class. i skipped psych today.. cuz well.. its psych. haah :) anyways, besides all that things are going okay with me. i feel im losing touch with a lot of ppl since after the break, havent talked to my usual bunch in a while - jliu, jenbo, and others. so i hope you all are doing well. keep up the hard work. yes. thats it :) peace.

You can have my heart
But it isn't new
It's been used and broken
And only comes in blue

It's been down a long road
And it got dirty on the way
If I give it to you will you make it clean
And wash the pain away

You can have my heart
If you don't mind broken things
You can have my heart if you don't mind these tears
Well I heard that you make old things new
So I give these pieces all to you
If you want it you can have my heart

So beyond repair
Nothing I could do
I tried to fix it myself
But it was only worse when I got through

Then you walked right into my darkness
And you speak words so sweet
And you hold me like a child
Till my frozen tears fall at your feet

You can have my heart
If you don't mind broken things
You can have my heart if you don't mind these tears
Well I heard that you make old things new
So I give these pieces all to you
If you want it you can have my heart

I HAD AN EXAM TODAY!
how insane is that? oh well. major failage! haha it was horrible, i didnt know anything. anyways i havenot blogged in a long time. uhm what to say? its been a good holiday, lotsa fun with family, friends, etc. went to go see jenbo in mississauga, that was fun. and had a little lau get-together for newyears, which was good as well. church dinner, played a lot of hockey instead, then hockey the next day with ghetto people downtown. went skiing with church people and my lil cousins. ate SO much food, buffets, kbbqs, hot pots, you name it i ate it. and uhm... not much else! played lots of games with james. yes! thats about it. anyways this blog made absolutely no sense whatsoever, but thats okay cuz if u know me thats how i am most of the time. oh yes. one last thing. im almost even again! well not quite. hopefully by the end of the week. ahhhhh. oh and i have a meeting tomorrow for a club here at school. i hate it. i want to quit. but no. i musnt. okay not THATS everyhting. laters skaters.