this weekend was nice. on friday i actually went to all my classes, all 2 of them. even though i was so tempted to skip math, but i reluctantly went. then in the afternoon jon and alli came over with sharon and i and we watched all these bad movies together. sooooooooo bad. worst movies ever. haha :) anyways at night we went to waterloo ccf. it was bible study, actually very good. the ppl in my group had some really good points. a really good over-analysis of 1 john 4. :) hehe ooh and then after they had PEROGIES for liek snack food. how funny is that. alli and i took so many. hush hush. anyways :) oh yah! and anita gave us chocolate chip cookies. all wrapped up with a bible verse. how nice was that?!?! so it realyl got me thinking about like how im not really a nice person. or not as nice as i should be. so im starting to really get inspired to be a lot more loving to others. and she said something during the bible study about not disliking people, because the second you do, you're making a judgement call that you're better than them. and i tend to do that rather often it seems. humility is somethign that we all need so desperately in our lives. so yeah. afterwards, we (etcbc-waterloo branch) went to east sides and got food. which was nice. its always fun times hanging around that group. so then afterwards we went home. a good end to a long day. saturday, one of the first days i got to sleep in in a long while. sigh. so nice :) woke up at around 10:30 (still considered 'sleeping in' for me) we went to go play softball, and it was really rainy the night before, so we were scared no one would go. but it turned out that like 17/18 people went. so we had a great time. our team came back from a 12 run deficit to win it in the final inning! hehe really good, fun, bonding times. anyways, afterwards i came back to res and tried to study a bit, couldnt realyl, so for dinner we went over to adrienne's where edmund and will made us dinner. good stuff! then we dropped off will, picked up alli and went to go bowling, but stupid alley was full and booked up until 11:30. and they said there were no other 10 pin alleys in all of kitchener-waterloo. lies! :) haha anyways so we went shopping at sobeys and got all this food and then we went to blockbuster and got this funny black movie called two can play that game. we went to edmunds and watched it. funny funny. then we went back and slept (including that extra hour) :) hehe then today we had church. sharon and i almost missed the bus. oh man. meh :) hehe we're such jerks. we didnt even run when they told us to and when we saw them waiting for us. ahhaha :) anyways so church was.. interesting. the message was pretty bad. liek really bad. but thats okay. cuz we had a hero sunday school to make up for it. the guy talked about the doctrine of sin. so good. (not sin, the class) but yeah, really informative, the guy totally knew what he was talking about. anyways, after that we went to this chinese place to go eat. which was good food. cuz they had dim sum. so funy, there were 6 of us.. (all et ppl) and then will came late, but he didnt eat. anyways, we ordered 6 hau gous, and 5 siu mys. and lots of other food too. so much. so funny. oh boy. then we came back home. and i studied. and napped. but i should study more. cuz i have a midterm tomorrow. frick. okay. anyways. enough of this. just letting you all catch up. hope you're all doing well. this is andy, signing off :)

so today was a lot better. but still, i think ineed to explain myself for yesterdays post. cuz it seems kinda outta nowhere. see, the thing was i got back my math midterm. and i didnt do too well. and this isnt one of those "75" not do so wells. it was a "just barely pass" not do so well. anyways, i kinda realized no point in dwelling on the past, just focus on whats ahead. (4 midterms lie ahead) but yeah, just want to thank people for actually cheering me up and caring enough to do so. ppl like sharon, anita, daph, even jer :) hhehe he told me if all else fails i can become a pastor :) anyways, today was okay. thursdays arent too bad, cuz i only have two classes. eco from 10-11.20 and psych from 1-2.20. so that was easy. and also, okay for business class we're doing this stock market simulation game. and i was so happy today. cuz i bought nortel and it jumped something like 18% today. so im finally out of the red!! :) ahhaah man, no ones ever gonna wanna give me their money in the future. which is a good thing :) haha anyways yeah. so for those of you who arent yet in uni. lemme leave you with a little sample of university life..*ahem* sitting at your computer at 1:27am wearing sweat pants, tshirt and flipflops, eating badly cooked rice doused in soy sauce with lemon flavoured sardines. and eating an all natural apple crisp granola bar afterwards to get the sardine taste out of your mouth. i can still feel all the little bones. welcome to university.

just leave you with my little calendar's quote of the day. this one is from a.w. tozer: An infinite God can give all of Himself to each of His children. He does not distribute Himself that each may have a part, but to each one He gives all of Himself as fully as if there were no others.
kinda neat to think about that eh?

today was one of those days where i felt like playing maxpayne and just blowing badguys' freakin heads off.



I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I like to laugh so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just wanna my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

sigh! what a nice long day. so today (err.. yesterday..friday) started off with business lab early in the morning. which actually didnt turn out to be so bad, just cuz we didnt really have any work due. we got our labs back, my group got 82% which isnt great, but not too shabby either i guess. anyways, after that i had math at 12:30 and then i went back home!! errr by home i mean toronto. which is where i am now. oh wait. before math sharon and i watched some of empire records. but we didnt get to finish it. oh well. some other time. anyways yeah, i got a ride back from my friend. my WHITE friend. wow. :) haha so we're in his car, on our way home, and he shows me his dvd collection. and im like, yeah man, cool stuff. and hes like, you wanna watch something? and i was like, sure, cuz i thought he meant like sometime later in the future. well, apparently not. so he like presses what appears to be the eject on the apparent cd rom, and it comes out and he flips it up to reveal a touchscreen dvd player. which he can also watch tv on. oh my. so we watched rat race on the way home. so funny. it was the dirtiest thing ive ever seen. oh my. i think im getting a ride up on sunday as well. sweet deal :) anyways, came home and hung aroudn for a bit before my friend picked me up to go downtown to watch the raps game. and we all met up (4 of us guys) and it was a really great time. the seats were so good. we sat in front of glen grunwald! haha my friend garway was like, good luck with the season, glen. and he was like yeah, thanks. ahaha too funny. anyways we lost, but nonetheless it was a fun time. then we went back to his residence and hung aroudn and i finally got to do my runs and visited people. we hung out at my friend andy's place for a long time. which was really great, cuz it was just good to hang out and catch up again with the boys. i really did miss just chilling like that. after that it was getting late so we left andys and went to drop garway off at his res. and while we were there, i decided to pay my other school friend a visit. so we went up to her room and her suitemates were like uh shes not here, shes at a party on the 2nd floor. so we' went down and went to the party to find her. and yah. when i saw her she was drunk. so she came running up and was like justin! but yah.. i dunno. it was really realyl great seeing her again. cuz we used to be so tight. and even now we're still good friends. and i guess i kinda expected her to be so. but it was just weird seeing her drunk. like we didnt even really get to talk or anythign much. so yah.. i dunno. im still really glad i saw her though. anyways, after that we left and went home. on the subway home i got to talk to my 2 boys quite well, jsut about uni life and stuff. and then after one of our friends went home at finch, i got to talk to my other friend a great deal about pretty deep stuff on the car ride home. and it was really cool. realyl meaningful it felt like.. id unno. things are happening in their lives. and its kidna cool to see how God works in my life, and in the lives of others. really interesting, how school friends who i didnt really hang out iwht all too much in the earlier grades are now kinda finding out about God and stuff. its really cool. anyways yeah. so i got home, and here i am. blogging and eating cheese. mmm. oh and yeah. its my friend cheryl's bday today (yesterday). i gave her a call, haha shes so funny. happy birthday buddy, and good luck on those midterms. thats pretty much it. its different again without sharon, im gonna miss her so much if she ever goes away. but thats another story. so yah. you take care too buddy. dont let those drunk white people near your door. :)

so today was quite a day. had class today, as usual. and i had a calc midterm. so lemme tell you. i didnt really study much for this. at all. so i guess i deserved what was coming to me. considering i like napped before my exam instead of studying :) but anyways, i didnt finish the last two pages, so that was 23 percent gone already. oh frickin crap. it was quite hard. and i think if i had studied i could have done a bit better. but nonetheless. thats over with. so as you might have guessed, it wasnt the greatest day at all. anyways so tonight, i got a really good chance to unwind. dawn and jon took sharon and i out to a pub on campus, along with this other girl hannah. well anyways we got to see a really good cover band do some old stuff, and i got to wash my troubles away in a sea of... well anyways :) enough about that. this wknd im not sure if im going home yet. which is intersting i spose, cuz its officially friday. im sposed to go to a raps game, ROW 6 courtside tomorrow (today) but i need a ride home. if not, then im a no go. so yah. we'll see what happens i sopsoe? :) haha okay. anyways this is gonna be painfully short, cuz i feel like it. so there. :) peace!

from brian webb's 'im afraid of white people':

I'm afraid they're too violent
I'm afraid they're too mean
I'm afraid of big hair
I'm afraid of tight jeans
Tight jeans Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

I'm afraid of big trucks
I'm afraid of fascists
The NRA
And guys with half grown mustaches
Mustaches Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

So come on, come on, come on, come on, come on
come on, come on, come on, its alright
Come on, come on, come on,
Its just that all you white people look alike

Mama some day I'm gonna be president
But when everyone tells ya, that everyone says
That everyone thinks you're a drug dealer
What?

I saw this guy jogging in my neighborhood
And I thought to myself
Hey someone should call the cops
cuz you never can be too sure
You might think I was prejudiced,
But every now and again I find it in my heart
to hang out with my white friends
My white friends, I have 4 of them

BOY AM I TIRED!!! and stuffed. so today was nice and fun. still havent started on that homework yet. (oh goodness) but yes. today church service started at 10:15 cuz we now officially have 3 services! so it was interesting. i got there at like 10:05 cuz i was sposed to do worship team so tim could have a break. and then ayh. we didnt practise or anything. and i broke a string!!!! even when i wasnt strumming hard. oh boy. not too great. i sounded pretty bad today. prolly shouldn't have even played. oh my. but besides that, church was fine. afterwards we were hanging around which was fun. and then we had a surprise birthday party for sharon. oh sharon. sigh. i dont think she'll ever catch on to these surprises we throw for her every year at the same time. hahaha: ) but nonetheless it was a lot of fun. after that, we came home and had the softball team over for thanksgiving dinner. hence why i am so stuffed. i ate so much turkey and stuffing. oh man. it was so good. and it was just a nice time of chilling and bonding and remembering old friendships made during the summer. so it was great seeing everyone again. anyways i just kicked the last of them out of the house. so finally i can get some rest. cuz im tired. cuz turkey makes you sleepy. :) so goodnite y'all. happy eating. and have a thankful heart.

so today was a nice relaxing day. like most other days in fact :) but anyways, woke up around 9ish. read the paper. watched some tv. then went out with leo. good to hang out again, just like the good ol' days. so we went to mickyd's and then to mitchell's to do a little shopping. and we got.. stuff. haha. then i came home, napped until dinner (lol) and then went over to sharon's and hung out until 11. then i came home, had some cold pizza and a piece of apple strudel while watching sports hilights, and now here i am. *exhale* anyways, enough about me. how is everyone else doing!? :) hahha sorry i dont have anything too earth shattering to say tonight. wait. lemem think. .. no not really. but thats okay. we all have our lazy days. so im listening to shane. if u guys dont know shane, go find out. you'll die. i think. yah. theres this song called when i think about the lord. and its quite a good song...and im totally feeling it now. but yah. thats besides the point. anyways i just kinda realized i blog more at home (t.o) than up in loo. intesresting. i think its cuz i have less to do around here :) haahah okay. anyways thats all from me tonight. sorry for making you read this :)

when i think about the Lord
how he saved me
how he raised me
how he filled me with the Holy Ghost
how we healed me to the uttermost

when i think about the Lord
how he picked me up
and turned me around
and set my feet on solid ground

makes me wanna shout
halleighlujah
thank you Jesus
Lord you're worthy
of all the glory
all the honor
all the praise

feeling really mellow today. very reflective, etc. spent some time today looking at old photos/reading old notes and cards from friends. its kinda cool. a lot of them i was really tight with for a while, but no longer anymore. which is sad.. kinda weird. i dunno. i grow in and out of friendships. i guess most people do. when you think you know someone and they change on you, or even when you change on them, its hard to adjust and adapt. but i spose thats all part of life, making new friendships, always growing. so yeah. today was a nice easy day. great :) i got a haircut today, finally. it was my first haircut since.. hmm.. middle july? about then. haha how crazy is that? i never take that long. but yah, i guess after the shave i just let it grow wildly. like dandelions! haha so yah. uhm what else today? i went out with justin liu at night. which was just wonderful. havent seen that boy in so long, it was great just chilling and hanging out again. we went to markville for a bit to look for stuff, then went to some shanghai restaurant. then we met up with gizzy and velsie at metro. and then james came and then angie came. and then alex came. so it was really nice seeing everyone again, and just checking up on how everyone is doing. so liu and i were talking today about like how uni changes your perspective. specially when you come back home. things just arent quite the same. its neither good nor bad, its just you have a different way of looking at things. hopefully it doesnt make me more cynical. but yah. ive noticed im quite a cynical person sometimes. and ive also noticed a lot of other bad character traits about myself. which means i have a lot of work to do before i become the person God wants me to be. but thats what life and growing up is all about. making mistakes and hopefully learning from them. anyways yep. i didnt get to see sharon today. its weird when u see someone for everyday for so long and then one day without them just seems different. but thats okay, cuz we're trying to be not dependent on each other at all. which is the way a relationship should go ithink. God's the only real one we need. so yah. thats about it. oh and yah. i just finished watching dogma again. it was on cbc. too funny. okay. thats all folks.

sigh. its good to be home. so i havent blogged in quite the long time. basically this whole week ive been really sick. which is not fun. but im finally home! and im gonna skip classes tomorrow and stay home!! :) so i had my commencement tonight. i honestly didnt really want to go at all, and wasnt even planning on it, until i found out i won an award, so i figured i should show up. anyways, i actually enjoyed myself. it was good seeing everyone again and just laughing and catching up on old times. hmmm. what else? not much really. im doing okay. its been an up and down week. i think the sickness is kidna getting to me. but thats okay. im home!! WHEE! :) so yeah. today i saw a friend that i hadnt seen in a while. and i was just thinking all about her salvation and stuff. and i was kinda wondering if i had missed my chance to share the gospel with her. and then i got into thinking like, what if im the only way that she'll hear the gospel and be saved. which is quite an interesting thought if u take the time to consider it. really puts everything into perspective. so how am i feeling now? hmm. well earlier today i was in a mood best described by everclear's wonderful: "somedays i hate everything, everyone and everything, please don't tell me everything is wonderful now." but now im in a much more mellow, reflective mood. and im kinda here with the thought that God is always there. just not even the fact that hes so good to us and stuff, but even the idea that hes constantly around. its kinda cool to think about it. but yeah. enough for now. im not making much sense. gotta go chug down the buckleys. ugh. later days! (thats what tino says on the weekenders! haha anyone have any idea what im talking about?? :) hehe)

from blink182's 'josie':

Yeah, my girlfriend takes me home when I'm too drunk to drive
And she doesn't get all jealous when I hang out with the guys
She laughs at my dumb jokes when no one does
She brings me mexican food from Sombrero's just because

And my girlfriend likes U.L. and D.H.C.
And she's so smart and independent, I don't think she needs me
Quite half as much as I know I need her
I wonder why there's not another guy that she'd prefer

And when I feel like giving up
Like my world is falling down

I show up at 3am
She's still up watching Vacation, and I
See her pretty face
It takes me away to a better place and

I know that everything, Everything's gonna be fine
I know that everything, Everything's gonna be fine

so today (yesterday, officially) was kinda fun. i always dislike wednesdays cuz it means i hafta wake up at 8.30. this particular morning, i truly did not feel like getting up whatsoever. but needless to say, i didnt miss any class. i got up :) but yah, it was alright. my sociology class isnt too bad. its actually interesting sometimes, even though a lot of the points and issues raised are really pagan. but yah..other than that, not much happened in terms of classes. math is boring, and im already falling behind. really scared :P eeps! but yah. uhmm.. we had fellowship tonite at laurier. where we all went out to eat chinese food. which was nice. afterwards, sharon and i went over to anita's place to play mario party until like midnight. oh goodness. this anita is so nice to us. shes great. she had like heavenly hash ice cream. which was delicious. and like.. she remembered me saying last week that i could really go for some jujubes, so today she was like, i have something for you. and lo and behold, she pulls a package of jujubes out of her bag. and she said i can only eat it when im studying, cuz its study food. how nice is that? wow. shes faboo. anyways.. what else. i joined my floor's intramural soccer team. which should be interesting cu zi dont really play that well. so i hope i dont embarass myself. but i guess i should get to know them better, so i signed up to play with them. im gonna miss a lot of games cuz they play on wednesdays when i have fellowship, but at least i can go to some of their games that fall on tuesdays. i figure i might as well do SOMETHING with them instead of hiding away from them all the time. hmm what else? this weekend im going home.. friday econ midterm, then after that HOME! and then saturday we have that afc song competition thing. i forget if i blogged about this before, but sharon and i are helping this guy at our church play for a song he wrote.. so on saturday we go to perform/record that. so yah. then on sunday we have some tc reunion. where we hafta play. i dont know about that. i guess i todl ppl i was gonna go so i hafta. right jenbo? haha but yah, katie would be really mad at me if i skipped. but i wanna go back to loo as well with sharon and alli. so we'll find out later. anyways.. thats about it. one more thing. its one month as of today. :) im happy.