sigh. its good to be home. so i havent blogged in quite the long time. basically this whole week ive been really sick. which is not fun. but im finally home! and im gonna skip classes tomorrow and stay home!! :) so i had my commencement tonight. i honestly didnt really want to go at all, and wasnt even planning on it, until i found out i won an award, so i figured i should show up. anyways, i actually enjoyed myself. it was good seeing everyone again and just laughing and catching up on old times. hmmm. what else? not much really. im doing okay. its been an up and down week. i think the sickness is kidna getting to me. but thats okay. im home!! WHEE! :) so yeah. today i saw a friend that i hadnt seen in a while. and i was just thinking all about her salvation and stuff. and i was kinda wondering if i had missed my chance to share the gospel with her. and then i got into thinking like, what if im the only way that she'll hear the gospel and be saved. which is quite an interesting thought if u take the time to consider it. really puts everything into perspective. so how am i feeling now? hmm. well earlier today i was in a mood best described by everclear's wonderful: "somedays i hate everything, everyone and everything, please don't tell me everything is wonderful now." but now im in a much more mellow, reflective mood. and im kinda here with the thought that God is always there. just not even the fact that hes so good to us and stuff, but even the idea that hes constantly around. its kinda cool to think about it. but yeah. enough for now. im not making much sense. gotta go chug down the buckleys. ugh. later days! (thats what tino says on the weekenders! haha anyone have any idea what im talking about?? :) hehe)