thoughts:
im odd. you ever come to that conclusion that you're just really weird? not really quite the same as everyone else, kinda out there and different? i suppose the thing is, we all are. which makes it okay. but i guess today i was just thinking back and evaluating some of my past actions, and i realize that a lot of the time i have no rationale for a lot of the things i do. and more often than not, i'll say one thing and do something completely opposite. which is pretty hypocritical. so i guess that got me thinking a bit more about myself.

happenings:
cfc was good today. they had baptism in a horse trough! so cool. haha it looked really gheto but it was cool. and then this guy sang a jeremy camp song so that was cool. anyways, ken taylor talked about faith and jesus walking on water, brought up a few interesting points. the first one was that God requires us to have faith because hes far too big for us. if he really showed us all of himself, he'd consume us, overwhelm us. thats why he withdraws and holds a bit of himself back, and requires us to have faith. the second interesting point he made was that its not so much how much faith you have, but more importantly, where you place your faith. very interesting distinction. so yah, what else. tonight was grad dinner for all the uwccf and laurier ccf grads. interesting. haha actually no, what can i say, it was pretty boring. so long, and we left early too. the powerpoint slide show or whatever was a good half hour it seemed. ridiculous. and then the sharing. i mean some of it was good. but then there was some that was just like. 'uh and then the car broke down. duh.' so that was gay, and i was getting restless, so we ended up leaving at about 11 anyways. thats crazy. like 5 hours and its still not over. jeez louise. im dissapointed i didnt get to tell a few grads what theyve done for me though. so i really have no idea if they'll read this, but i think its important to point out just a few. firstly, anita. ive blogged about her in the past, but for those who dont remember, shes a hero girl. like shes totally in a league of her own in terms of heroeness. im quite sure shes the nicest person i've ever met in my entire life. i still remember, she made sharon and i feel very welcome at our new school, just by reaching out in love like a big sister and watching out for us, taking care of us. see, today at grad dinner a lot of ppl were saying how a lot of the grads were really cool, really nice, all this stuff. but the thing is, they never really talked to me. anita actually physically showed that she cared, and thats so important. she really inspires me to be a better person, more like her, and in turn more like jesus, because i know that its jesus that i see in her. you've been the greatest anita, and i cannot wish for you anything less than God himself to permeate and radiate from your life. i know you will shine as the brightest star in the universe. yah. and the other grad i should say something to is nate. i havent really talked about nate, and im pretty sure he doesnt read this, but hes a real quiet kinda guy. during frosh week with all those uwccf events i remember, i felt really out of place a lot of the time, and he was actually the first one to come and sit there to talk to me. thats a pretty nice thing for a 4th year to do, sit and talk to this geeky frosh kid. when i went to ccf the first few months of the year, he would always make it a point to talk to me as well. i dunno, but these little things really do make you feel better, and sometimes they're totally necessary. so to nate, just wanted to say thanks man, and i know that God will lead you along his path to the crown of righteousness. all the best.

feelings:
once again, quite mellow, but in a pleasant mood.

viewings:
mm that show undeclared (with the college kids), veggie tales - cheeseburger song, one too many slideshow presentations.

listenings:
shane and shane (oh goodness, so good you dont understand), jeremy camp.

readings:
jesus the one and only (beth moore), colossians, the reflective life (ken gire).

recommends:
wrap your mind around this, from r.a. torrey:

"if loving God with all our heart and soul and might is the greatest commandment, then it follows that not loving him that way is the greatest sin."