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been thinking a lot more lately, i was reading on gungors journal about how big the universe is etc and the fact that this huge huge God so far away would choose to love someone as tiny as myself. our solar system is literally a speck of dust in the milky way, and this is just one of hundreds of billions of galaxies that make up our known universe. its impossible just trying to wrap your head around that. anyways just something to consider i guess.

something interesting i read concerning Christ's call, from Brother Andrew:
There's not one door in the world closed where you want to witness for Jesus.. Show me a closed door and I will tell you how you can get in. I won't however, promise you a way to get out..

God will take away what hinders us if we mean business. If we say, "Lord, at any cost..." - and people should never pray that unless they truly want God to take them at their word - he will answer. Which is scary. But we have to go through the process. This is how it has worked in the Bible for the last two thousand years.

anyways i thought that was interesting, i lay in bed at 3am last night trying to wrap my head around it, am i at point where i can really say 'lord, at any cost'? difficult, dangerous. scary.

thoughts and prayers are also with a brother whos going through a tough time. everything, including the end of the school term etc, is really putting me in a pensive mood, trying to come to grips with certain life lessons, trying to wrestle with internal thoughts, etc. ive also kinda realized what i want most to leave here in regards to my last term here at laurier, but it kills me that i havent done much about it. thats a tough place to be. anyways, sorry for the a)incohesiveness b)ambiguousness c)randomness. be blessed.