restless

woke up at 5 something this morning and couldnt get back to sleep, only after 3 hrs of sleep, which is weird cuz i havent done it once this term yet. the one thought on my mind, strangely enough, was how much im going to miss ccf next year. not sure if i should really be losing sleep over it, but woke up really thinking about what im doing with the rest of my time here, and whether its being used effectively and wisely. i also realized i really only have a handful of wednesday nights remaining, and how different its going to be not having a group like this next year. university fellowship life is ultimately cruel in that way, where you've gotta just move on after essentially investing so much of your 4 years into this one group.